这几个星期，我都觉得我自己好忙，好忙 － 不知忙些什么的。转眼见，四年已怀着美好的回忆，也过去了。几个月前，我刚丛理工学院毕业，现在，我也在大学念书了。这是我料想不到的一场梦。这些月来，我变得好多。我也好累，好累。明年，你就会离开我，去追求你自己的梦想。我为你而感到骄傲，自足，也是你应得的。但是，我无法想像怎么度过那些孤单的日子。没有你在我身边，时时刻刻地陪伴着我，鼓励我，维护我。。。世界上，没有比你更了解我的人了。虽然我说不出口，但是，这长久的爱情，好歹会开花结果吧。我认识你时，我们才不到二十岁－他们说，我们不知到什么是爱情，什么是贪恋爱。那是泼我们冷水吧。你在我世界里，已留下了深刻的回忆，幸福美满的回忆。我后悔，为自己感到悲伤。但那记忆，已成了我脑海的黑影，我不碰，它不视。我的心还一阵一阵地跳着，把过去都埋毁掉，欢迎新的到来。

别来无恙

原来毕业不是告别。原来毕业不是甜蜜的。原来毕业只是一个新的开始－不管那几年有什么轰轰烈烈的爱情，这一切，都是为了向幸福美满的生活而争取的。三年前，我不认识的你，而三年后，我觉得我了解的你－我们吵过嘴，起过误会。。。现在，我好得为你而骄傲。我的世界，也不只有我一个人了，有你来争，你来抢。但以后，如能拨开纠结的阴霾，迎接一个幸福美满的人生呢？

Last post here, over at blogspot now.

I am afraid and I am at a loss of what to do. These few weeks has been more of a battle-zone, battling with my thoughts and battling with my feelings. I’m almost there but time and again I feel that I should just give up. The teachers gave us the credibility to take part in this upcoming IT competition representing the school, so we should do our best and make full use of this chance to show others what Year 1s have got. I am not able to manage two blogs at one go, and I’ll definitely miss using wordpress, but everyone’s at blogger and I feel lonely. I’ll leave this wordpress here (But I’ll probably shut it down soon…) so here’s my blogger address: http://jolenepoh.blogspot.com

I want to do well and achieve all ADs. I want to make my way into the University. I want to be more self disciplined and I want to learn how to prioritize my time more. I want to lead this new life like I’ve never done before. I have never felt so new.

Pictures Post

Some overdued photos of my colleagues… Will be seeing them tomorrow!!

我哭了

School these days has been tragically tiring. I’ve been juggling between my work (Mainly projects) and commitments for the class. Sometimes I take things too easily, but today, I totally blew up. Now that our class tee design is finally done, I’ve got one less matter to handle but more intense researches on my IAC and COMT projects. So, a few minutes ago, I’ve just sent John’s computing maths book for photocopying (Because I really don’t wanna spend $22.60 on it…) and I’ll be meeing Peiling to pass her my converse shoes later.

I think about my work place now and then, I miss the people there, I miss everyone who’s working there. I was reluctant and hesitant to work then, but now everything’s different. Before I go to bed tonight, schoolwork will be the last thing I’d want on my mind. One day, I want to do something to change the world. One day, I want to let the rest of the people out there know that they are, all survivng for a reason – That is to live this life they have to the fullest. And I’d want everyone to treasure their loved ones as much as they treasure their lives, because you wouldn’t know when they’d be taken away next.

Dear father,

Please bless my grandmother with good health.

In clasped hands I pray,
Jolene.

婆婆，我会在你身边陪着你，一辈子。请您不要离开我。

The calming waves, as though I were floating underneath the sea.

I hate my fringe, I hate my hair. I need (Or want) to do something with my hair but I still don’t know what to do with it. I finally figured my way around Microsoft Word, Microsoft Powerpoint and Microsoft Excel and I’m planning to join the Java Drive with Alvin and Danial in May. I haven’t really made up my mind but I guess I’m fixed on that thought for now.

This first week of school just whizzed by. My brain feels sponge-like, slow. Wet and soaked through like the bandages on a running boy in the rain, soaked of ideas and too much responsibility to bear. I am going through this much, don’t feel like eating much these days yet I make it a point to finish all my food. But look, I’m trying to prove a point here, like, there are starving kids in Africa. The rice prices are increasing, inflation of food and rice are inadvertently the cause of the higher death-rate in Africa (And everywhere). Pave the way yellow brick roads and ruby shoes. The rake-thin figures lay around on mud and below trees. These are happenings. Life is an installation. I am just lucky…

I’ll be meeting Jerry at Macs later to do the marksheet due Monday, I’ll be helping out at work tmrw, I’ll be busy planning/coordinating the plans of the skit for the Variety show for next Friday, I’ll be busy collating all the props that are needed, I’ll be busy giving everyone a role to perform, I’ll be busy telling who and who to do what and what, I’ll be busy thinking of backup dance moves in case Brice fail. I am not superwoman. But it’s just week one. I will survive.

很久没有用华文了！

I just came back from Spanish today. So my day in school ended at 8pm, wasn’t so tough doing powerpoint presentation and listening to a motivational talk, studying in the library and learning Spanish altogether.

Hola, me llamo + nombre. ¿ Y tú? ¿ Cómo te llamas?
No entiendo ¿Puedes repetir por favor?

I’m in love with the accent!!! Tied down with work and more work, lesser updates. Class committee will be busy with the Variety Show coming up (Hollywood theme damnit) and I hate taking charge… And I need a CCA badly, a) To grow less fat and b) To get CCA points for Local Uni Admission (Just in case). School’s till 6pm tomorrow and on Friday or later, work on Saturday and meeting project group on Sunday in school. Crazy ass week for me. But it’s too early to quit. It’s all about COMT, IAC and more presentations… I should stop complaining.

我们人都很独特，因为没有另一个人会有同样的指纹–像斑马一样，找不到跟它有一样斑的斑马。所以我们在这世界上，不管是十年还是二十年，都要把它活得最好，活得最有意义。

Lovely things that melts your heart

Looking at these makes me feel a lil’ comforted, and at the same time reminds me of the little kids running, trampling over their own small lil’ feets craving for brownies. I’ll show you what I mean. But it’s a pity I couldn’t get shots of lil’ kids while working. Maybe, next time.

And what’s wrong with people these days? Miniskirts work if you’re 20. But at 50 you risk being “mutton dressed up as lamb.” I see too many of these. Save that glamour folks.

最美好的回忆

今天是我在这部朗尼店做工的最后一天。我真会怀念这个地方！那些阿姨们，alvina姐姐和老板们都偷偷地给我一个惊喜-那就是给我一个六片winnie the pooh的布朗尼蛋糕！我顿时不知该说什么话才好，心里十分感动。我真料想不到他们还会给我什么惊喜的。我也开心到鼻子也红了，泪水也不停的流下来了。我爱他们。这几个月，若没有了他们在我身边鼓励我，支持我，我也耐不到今天。何况，这也是我第一次为人家打工，也是留给我最深刻的记忆的地方。我还是别多说了，再说下去，我泪水又快流出来了。

我一定会想念:
1。那从家到工作的四十五分钟的行程
2。早两个小时报道
3。跟阿姨们谈天说笑
4。alvina姐姐和lijuan姐姐叫我妹妹/宝贝
5。那两个好玩又谈得来的老板
6。为阿姨们，姐姐们，老板们按摩
7。到地铁外分布朗尼试品
8。他们教我标准的华语

送你们一句吧。
“Love is of all passions the strongest, for it attacks simultaneously the head, the heart and the senses.” – 老祖

I don’t care. Even if you’re the King’s son. I won’t give a damn.

I’m finally sitting at my desk again, somewhat alone. I haven’t been alone for weeks. Not since some jerkface reared his ugly head into my life and made me feel so trapped. I felt like I was living the biggest joke of a life in the universe. But you know what? These years I have fought to find myself, fought to keep me, fought to be me and fought to forget the guy whom I thought I could spend my life with (Not anymore). I won’t apologize for surviving. I’ve done enough of that.

My goal isn’t to bump anyone out, or cause division in anyone. Being marked down in something you do not want to be involved in just causes tension. That tension built and built and built… Leading to what probably caused the blow up last night.

Even though it’s only been a month and a few weeks, these mean alot to me. I enjoyed myself and their company alot.

School’s next week!